A Confession

Posted: 16 February, 2011 in Cataclysm, Mage, Raiding, Warrior

We spent the entirety of Monday night wiping on Al’akir in Throne of the Four Winds this week.  He’s the only boss we’ve not killed yet and the 25 man team should really be moving onto Heroic raid content, yet leaving one boss unkilled feels like failure, so off to the Throne we went.  Twice we got him down to less than 9%, and phase three of the fight is really the easiest part of the whole encounter, so by rights the guy should be dead.  However, Al’akir is the kind of boss who highlights my biggest problem in raiding – information overload.

It’s not just Cataclysm raiding, hard mode Hodir in Ulduar was another brick wall I ran into, and there have been others, but Al’akir’s the most recent example of the kind of problem I have on bosses where there’s just too much going on for me to remain effective.  The problem is, I’m 41 next month.  My reflexes aren’t what they used to be, there are youngsters in our raid who act like they have the reaction times of rattlesnakes on crack and they handle fights like this with ease.  Me, I need time to process things, time to let muscle memory take the slack that my reflexes can’t handle and my brain can’t process.  In this fight, you need to lay the smack down on the boss while ensuring you avoid three potentially lethal abilities.  The first is a pretty standard chain lightning effect, so…  spread out.  The second is a wall of cyclones that rotate around the boss.  There’s one gap in the wall and if you’re not in it, you get picked up and carried with the cyclones, throwing lightning bolts around your raid as you go.  It’ll probably kill you, but the major danger is the damage you do to the rest of your raid.  The final ability is a wind blast that the boss does to knock everyone back a certain distance.  Unless you’re hugging the boss it will probably knock you off the edge of his platform.  This won’t kill you, you get caught and eventually blown back up, but taken into consideration with the wall of cyclones it can be very nasty.  The thing is, they both happen at the same time throughout phase one.  So you get the warning that he’s about to do a Wind Blast and you naturally want to be close to the boss, except there’s a wall of cyclones approaching and the gap in the wall is away from the boss.  Decision time, folks.  Try to make the gap in time and get close to the boss so the wind blast doesn’t knock you off?  Or try to outrun the cyclone, but you then run the risk of getting caught in the chain lightning aimed at the group next to you and overloading your healers.  Or you can just jump off the edge and do zero dps for the next ten seconds, prolonging the length of time it takes to get into phase two where the wind blasts stop, and there’s no guarantee you won’t end up thrown into a cyclone anyway when you land back on the platform.

During all this, you’re contantly rotating your camera around, looking both ways for cyclones, keeping an eye on the timer bar for wind blasts, moving in, moving out, moving back to the group you’re supposed to stay with to avoid extra chain lightning damage, spinning the camera to ensure you are actually in the gap in the cyclone wall, watching the ground near you in both directions for the tell-tale graphic effect that warns you a cyclone is about to spawn and deciding where to move in advance if it does and somehow doing damage to the boss as well throughout all of it.  There are people who can handle this amount of information processing with ease the first night they see it.  I am not one of those people.  I can stay alive or I can do competitive dps, until I’ve done the fight enough for muscle memory to take over, I simply cannot do both.

My crappy dps probably cost us a kill on Monday.  We’d all be riding around on Dark Phoenixes right now if I’d sat the raid out.

Of course, sitting the raid out means I never get the experience to be any good at it.  So there’s the Catch 22.  On the bright side, I am good at the one thing that certain others amongst the raid are manifestly not – firing my frikkin’ lazerz at the correct target at the correct time.  Usually the targets that don’t have the damage debuffs on them from everyone else that makes you look good on damage meters but do in fact need to be killed quick or everyone dies.  Oh hi Snobolds on Northrend Beasts, yes I’m looking at you.  In phase two of the Al’akir fight, the boss summons some little friends, and every time you kill one the boss gets a damage debuff.  They need to be killed roughly one every 20 seconds in order to maximise the damage to the boss without running out of the little buggers.  Perhaps it’s my 21 years of military service, but when the raid leader says “You, you, you and you, kill these adds every 20 seconds”, that’s exactly what I do.  I don’t get overexcited because a shaman just popped heroism and forget that there are still adds up that need to be killed or we lose the damage debuff on the boss, I kill adds.

Similarly, whenever there’s an unglamorous job that needs to be done which is going to cost you dps, I’m usually the one who does it.  In Naxxramas at level 60, I was the guy who corpse camped adds watching for scarab spawns on Anub’rekhan.  I was damn good at it too, none of those little bastards ever got away from me.  I was also the guy who switched to Frost spec on Deathbringer Saurfang in Icecrown Citadel in order to get a ranged snare on the Bloodbeasts when they spawned, and this probably led to our first successful heroic 25 man kill of him.  But I wonder, now do I volunteer for this stuff because I know that my dps on new bosses isn’t going to be what it should, but hey, I can always point to the vital low dps job I was doing as an excuse?  Or do I get picked for these jobs because the raid leader knows a) I can be trusted to do it well or b) because the loss of my mediocre dps won’t be a raid wiper.  Or in fact is it a) and b)?  I think it used to be a), but as the years went by and my reflexes and ability to quickly process information deteriorated, I suspect there’s a large element of b) coming into play too.

And the thing is, I don’t want to be carried, but I suspect I am.  Don’t get me wrong here, on those occasions when I can power up the lasers and nuke away like I never nuked before, I’m still perfectly capable of keeping up with the big boys, and once I’ve learned a fight and committed it to muscle memory I produce pretty decent results.  The problem is that you rarely get to stand in one safe spot and blaze away like an 80’s action hero anymore, and progression fights on 25 man heroic content are not the place to be for people who can’t process 15 different things at once and still produce rockstar dps.

I’m not saying I’m the only person in our raid who underperforms.  Everyone has bad days, but their consciences are their own problem, not mine.  I don’t want to be raiding if I feel like I’m the reason we’re not getting bosses killed, but I do want to be raiding.  So…  a quandary.  It doesn’t help that there’s one mage in our raid who is an absolute god.  I’m never going to be, and never have been as good as he is.  There’s no bad feeling here, he’s an immensely likeable and knowledgable player, but holding myself up against him as a comparsion wouldn’t be fair on anybody, let alone just me.

Curiously, I seem to be doing consistently good dps on Gorn, my Fury warrior.  This is wierd, because Mister Melee DPS and I have rarely been on speaking terms with each other.  I suspect the reason is that as a Warrior I find myself waiting just that fraction of a second longer for abilities to come off cooldown, that it allows me a reaction time budget that you just don’t get on a Mage.  I’m beginning to wonder if the best course of action might not be to retire Calli and try to earn a raid spot on Gorn.  But…  well I’ve got a hell of a lot invested in the old girl.  It’s going to hurt, but it may be the honest thing to do.

I guess we’ll just see how it goes.  I need to do better, it’s just a question of working out what, and how.  Ideally I’d be doing better on Calli, but “doing better” may mean not raiding at all.  I just hope I’m honest enough with myself to recognise which is the correct option and act on it.

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Comments
  1. Stubborn says:

    Great post, and I completely feel your pain, though you’ve got about a decade on me. I’m already seeing some of the problems you mention in my own gameplay. I see it also in the “rattlesnake on crack” who was my best friend’s little brother, who could beat anyone anywhere at anything that required twitch reflexes.

    There’s a post you might be interested in on http://tobolds.blogspot.com/2011/02/my-cataclysm-raid-plans.html (which is not my blog, but I found the connection between your two subjects fascinating) wherein the author describes how raiding has changed from vanilla to now. I think perhaps your “information overload” has less to do with your age and more to do with the way the game operates now, or at least that’s what Tobold’s post suggests. I certainly hope that’s the case for me (:

  2. repgrind says:

    Don’t understimate the importance of those utility things you have done/are doing. Killing adds/kiting/decursing and all those other sorts of odd jobs mages are given from time to time are thankless, but players who do them well are priceless.

    I’ve always been one of those who never tops the dps meter, but could proudly point out my interrupts/dispels. In a sense, this expansion has been both a godsend and a nightmare as far as that goes. Now *everyone* is trying to interrupt/dispel, and I rarely even get to lead that category. (Blizz! 24s CD on counterspell? WTF?! Show us some love, fools)

    Sometimes a change of role can be beneficial. I’m healing now instead of dpsing and loving it. I feel a lot less pressure … which sounds crazy since healing is supposedly MORE stressful. Maybe you’d be happier playing the warrior … but you’re the only one who can decide that. My situation is a bit different than yours though, being in a less progressed 10 man with no real danger of losing my slot if I decide I’m tired of the role I’m in.

  3. Windsoar says:

    While it’s normal to want to attribute our lack of move-out-of-the-bad reflexes to age as we get older, I must say that Al’Akir is just a darn punishing fight in terms of requiring a good amount of movement throughout the first phase. If your movement performance seems good on the rest of the content, I wouldn’t spend too much time beating yourself to a pulp over this particular fight–I’ve seen every single raid member knocked off the edge/sucked into the vortex of a tornado at least once, and some players several times because the damn things are just a little TOO random.

  4. Larísa says:

    /sign on this. It’s me in a nutshell. I always do my best, I’m not a slacker in any sene, but yet I tend to fall behind. And since I’m fairly competative I hate it. I want to excel in what I do but sometimes the will isn’t enough. 😦

  5. dwism says:

    I think every player who ever stops and reflects on how they play, can and do relate Calli. So don’t you worry your balding grey head anymore about this. Now go back to the other retirees. I heard that they are serving pudding tonight!

    Seriously though, this excact feeling was why I stopped signing up for 25 mans back in the day. I could only make one raid a week, tops, so whenever I joined I felt out of touch, one step behind, and always felt like I was just slowing everyone down. I suspect that this is also partly the reason why I preferred healing and tanking over dps, Your output simply is not as quantifiable when you are healing or tanking, as it is when you are Pew’ing.
    What Im getting to, is this: Everyone past 18, feels this way. It’s just weird that so few bloggers ever post about it!

  6. Late to this post but important point all the same (well I think it is) –

    It looks to me like you’re the one doing your job properly ie you’re the one dealing with the adds that NEED to be killed. Plenty of times I have seen a wipe becuase the snobolds didn’t go down fast enough or cos the right tentacles in Yogg Saron weren’t DPS’ed quickly enough.

    Taking on that duty does cost you your place in the DPS charts sure… but being top of the DPS chart doesn’t mean you’re a good player. Any fool in Wrath could stand in the fire spamming their rotation and just rely on the healer to take the slack – these people may have been top of the chart but they were promptly booted out of raid for slacking.

    Don’t be afraid of filling the role that you do well, you’re good at it and it needs to be done. It doesn’t make you any less of a player, it makes you one hell of a team player because you’re not so hung up on your epeen in Recount to think that such roles are beneath you.

    Also, just bear in mind that I’m in a guild where there are a lot of older players (30+) and I’m one of them. We don’t have the reflexes of a ninja with a caffeine addiction but we’re still one of the leading progression guilds on our server. That’s cos we work as a team, we know our classes and follow the strats and honestly I believe that is what raiding is really all about.

    • Calli says:

      Well thanks for the words of support, but the crack-addicted rattlesnake I’m referring to can handle utility roles at the same time as doing rockstar dps, but it’s not fair comparing myself to him, he really is exceptional. I’m happy that I’ll improve on any given fight with experience, that’s just the way I roll. In the meantime, the jobs that need doing, get done, and the dps improves each time. 😉

  7. Oldguy says:

    Welcome to the wonderful aging process. I’m 57, so my reflexes aren’t nearly what they were at 41, and if the youth seem to have reflexes like rattlesnakes on crack, then someone like you seems to me to have reflexes like, dunno, Charlie Sheen on crack. They’re people I can’t keep up with.

    I think it’s just a matter of finding a compatible group to raid with. I’ve raided pretty casually with the same guild for 4 years in one faction where I’m not the weakest link, just one of several, and we have had fun with the raids until Cataclysm. We just don’t have the attendance now, didn’t have it at the end of Wrath – I gave up when we were progressing on the LK fight and then suddenly didn’t have 10 people for the rest of the expansion – and now we’ve had one raid in Cata. I’ve raided a little with another guild in another faction where a lot more raiding goes on but where I am definitely the weakest link if I run with the A team. I may not even try anymore. But you’d fit in really well with a group like them.

    • Calli says:

      A lot of guilds are experiencing what you’re going through. Interest tailed off at the end of Wrath, for a lot of people there was no point in finally getting the Arthas kill when the loot reward was going to be useless in a couple of weeks. Gearing up for Cataclysm raids meant doing Cataclysm heroics, and those were harder than anyone expected. It all depends on what motivates you, and you’re exactly right – you need to find a compatible group to raid with.

  8. Hearthyn says:

    I’m 42. I’m not 92. I don’t wear adult diapers. My hands don’t shake with age. My vision is still good. And this isn’t professional football or the Olympics. This is an online video game that, imo, has more to do with perception, reflexes, your computer’s capabilities, and your audio-visual coordination than age.

    Quite frankly, I’m getting sick of the attitude of some of the younger players, too. To them I say this–You will be 40+ one day, and I eagerly await that day…so the 20 somethings can blast both of us.

    Cata is a different animal than Wrath. Dps and heal meters are not going to be the same on every fight. In fact, more fights are about survivability more so than meters. A good raid leader will recognize this and adjust his/her expectations accordingly, and according to gear levels, experience levels, etc. of the guildmates brought along for each fight.

    This isn’t to say you don’t have improvements to make–I just don’t think you are being carried from what I have read here. And I think a lot of people are experiencing similar frustrations in Cata. Keep your chin up, keep researching the fights and the changes to your class, and you should be fine.

    • Calli says:

      I think you’re most likely right. It’d be more worrying if I was dragging arse on the meters and *not* being concerned about how to improve. And truth be told, I can see improvements.

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